Tumblr cross-over copout post.
Haven’t had enough time/the right mindset to write. Sigh. I’ll get back to you, blog, before the year ends for our year-end review.
Dec
14
2011
Oct
08
2011
Jul
07
2011
Under One Small *
[BGmusic: Soldier by Ingrid Michaelson]
Quote for the day:
“Get up and get down and get outside.”
- Frank Turner, Reasons Not To Be An Idiot
[Are you an idiot? This will help you!]
You’re a big-picture kind of person, but also being a half-empty-glass kind of person means this isn’t a good thing. Often you find yourself awake hours before your alarm, overwhelmed, thinking, “What am I going to mess up today?” I can only imagine how hard it gets to crawl out of bed when it seems like the safest place on earth–there you have no expectations to live up to, no tightropes to teeter across, no poison darts to dodge, no pressure.
It takes a lot of courage to get up and go out in the real world, to interact and open up to people just as fragile as you are. Right now, blind, stupid courage is all you’re running on. You fervently hope and pray that your heart won’t give out any time soon, because when it’s not falling apart, the real world can be wonderful. Though you know it can’t stay intact forever, for now you’ll try not to overthink, try to live in the now, and enjoy this rare togetherness while it lasts.
Apr
18
2011
Hot Summer Night
[BGmusic: Fly Love by Jamie Foxx]
Quote for the day:
What am I supposed to be?
Look at me, oh my love.
Here I am, what am I supposed to do?
Here I am, what can I do for you?- John Lennon
A lot happened recently. Look around and you’ll agree. The universe has been throwing people in the most unexpected directions–people have lost/gained friends, pets, jobs, direction, boyfriends, girlfriends, complicatedfriends, etc.
But. For some strange reason nothing major has happened to me, and save for some self-inflicted drama, all I have to show for myself is a tan [thank you, office team building exercise] and a bad haircut. [I went to get my bangs trimmed and my stylist got overexcited with the scissors. Now I have Amelie-bangs--perfectly adorable if you have Audrey Tautou's bone structure, but I don't so I just look like a dweeb.]
Anyway, I’m really really happy for developments in other people’s lives and everything, but living vicariously through my books and friends’ stories gets old after a while. It doesn’t have to happen now, but I need to know that one day I will step out of the chorus line and see what it’s like to be Out There. Is that too much to ask, world? Just one solo. One line, even?
I promise I’ll spare the universe from my dancing.
Please?
4/21/11
UPDATE: I change my mind. I like the safety of the chorus line too much to put myself out there. Thank you and have a nice day!
Feb
19
2011
On Being Unprepared
[BGmusic: C & F by Antarctica Takes It!]
Quote for the day:
I just wanted a picture! You can’t disappoint a picture!
- Troy, Community S02E16: Intermediate Documentary Filmmaking
The thing about “waiting for life to happen” that is oh-so-popular with the twenty-somethings-stuck-in-ruts such as myself is that we often overlook the importance of being ready when things actually start happening.
Forced metaphor time. Say you’re on a surfboard and you’re waiting for a good wave, and you wait and wait and wait for aaaages, and when it finally comes, you’ve got your back turned and end up being swept under the sheer force of the water. Or you’ve been baking something complicated – a souffle – and when it’s ready, you find that you’ve misplaced your gloves, and so you have to choose between burning your fingers or ruining your pastry. Or you’re a Jewish bridesmaid and after waiting all night for the bridesgroom to come you find that you haven’t got any oil for your lamp, so like the sad schmitty you are you get left out of the partay. Etcetera.
I’ve been waiting for adventure in the great wide somewhere for so long; long enough to make me an expert in waiting but terrible at everything adventuring requires. True story.
Jan
10
2011
2011: The Wishlist
[BGmusic: Calling by Leona Naess]
Quote of the day:
My Life is starting over again, over again
my friends say I’m back again
My life is starting over again
Over again
My life is starting over again, over again
my friends say I’m back again
My life is starting over again
Over again- My Life Is Starting Over Again, Daniel Johnston
I’m not much of a resolutions person. I know better than to give in to the pressure of New Year and make promises to myself that I probably won’t keep. I mean, if you really want to accomplish something, you wouldn’t wait until New Year to act on it, right?
Instead, I make wishes. I like ticking them off throughout the year and going back in December to see how much of them has come to pass – and a lot of them do happen, which surprises me all the time because quite a few of them requires a decent amount of faith-stretching to believe that they’d actually happen.
So here’s this year’s:
1. Climb a mountain. This is probably my most realistic because I’m planning on climbing Mt. Pulag at the end of this month. I’ve been needing to get off my ass, and it’s been too long since I’ve done a real hike, plus it’s Mt. Pulag, which I’ve been dreaming to climb since high school. I don’t want to count my proverbial chickens, but yay me!
2. More love! Not for me, of course not! [Haven't you people learned anything? When it comes to matters of the heart, I prefer to live vicariously and enjoy other people's happy relationships!] I have quite a few people in mind whose love lives I would really enjoy to watch flourishing. This means people finding their special someones, people getting engaged, people marrying… *sigh* the closer they are to my heart, the better. I would rather not name names so as not to add to the pressure they may already be feeling, but if you’re reading this and you feel that I’m talking about you… yes, I probably am. *wink*
May
09
2010
Wicked Games
[BGmusic: I'm Waking Up To Us by Belle and Sebastian]
Quote for the day:
Man is a make-believe animal: he is never so truly himself as when he is acting a part.
A long, long time ago, back in the days of Pogs and Tamagochi, I used to run around pretending to be the Pink Ranger/Sailor Venus/A Horse/Little Foot.
Now that I’m older and equipped with more sophisticated make-believe equipment, I pretend to be Cool/A Grown-Up/Good/Together/Someone You Would Be Friends With.
Pretend games weren’t always this depressing.