Hot Summer Night
[BGmusic: Fly Love by Jamie Foxx]
Quote for the day:
What am I supposed to be?
Look at me, oh my love.
Here I am, what am I supposed to do?
Here I am, what can I do for you?- John Lennon
A lot happened recently. Look around and you’ll agree. The universe has been throwing people in the most unexpected directions–people have lost/gained friends, pets, jobs, direction, boyfriends, girlfriends, complicatedfriends, etc.
But. For some strange reason nothing major has happened to me, and save for some self-inflicted drama, all I have to show for myself is a tan [thank you, office team building exercise] and a bad haircut. [I went to get my bangs trimmed and my stylist got overexcited with the scissors. Now I have Amelie-bangs--perfectly adorable if you have Audrey Tautou's bone structure, but I don't so I just look like a dweeb.]
Anyway, I’m really really happy for developments in other people’s lives and everything, but living vicariously through my books and friends’ stories gets old after a while. It doesn’t have to happen now, but I need to know that one day I will step out of the chorus line and see what it’s like to be Out There. Is that too much to ask, world? Just one solo. One line, even?
I promise I’ll spare the universe from my dancing.
Please?
4/21/11
UPDATE: I change my mind. I like the safety of the chorus line too much to put myself out there. Thank you and have a nice day!
I R Disappoint
Sons of Adam,
I am fast losing hope in your kind.
I don’t want to hate you – I really don’t – so if you’re reading this, please try to act like decent human beings.
Truly tired of dealing with jerks and
Sincerely wanting to renew her faith in you,
Daughter of Eve
The Power Is YOURS!
[BGmusic: I have no idea what this song is but it's by MuteMath]
Quote for the day:
“The two most common elements in the universe are Hydrogen and stupidity.”
- Harlan Ellison
Blog: A Brief History
[BGmusic: You Have Been Loved by Sia]
Quote for the day:
My brother: “[Insert philosophical blah-blahs here]…for example, I’m good at bass guitar. Ate Ror [our eldest], you’re good at design. And [DQ]… Â you’re good at… *pauses*…sleeping.”
- He evidently thinks a lot of me.
Context: In a taxi on the way home from Life Pursuits,
talking about knowing the purposes of our talents.
Hey, it takes a lot of dedication to relax the way I do.
I started blogging in 2004, a few months after I graduated from high school. I didn’t go to college right away like the rest of the Philippines, but decided to take a year-long break to figure out what I wanted in life [I didn't]. So, while my high school friends were busy warming up to their new lives in university and hanging out with their shiny new college friends, I quickly got reacquainted with my not-so-inner loner.
Lost and Found
[BGmusic: We Used to Vacation by Cold War Kids]
Dear reader, do you know this movie?
Plot summary (from imdb.com):
When a young boy and his family don’t come one year to their holiday home, their household appliances… think their master might be in trouble. They decided that rather than stay where they are, they’ll try to find them. So beings a dangerous and amusing adventure through the countryside and into the big city. Written by Cynan Rees {cynanrees@hotmail.com}
If you do, good. You know what I’m going to be talking about. If you don’t, now you know.
Anyway, I blame this movie especially for my unhealthy empathy towards inanimate objects.
For example, I crack a mug. Most people would feel pretty bad for being so clumsy, but sometimes – not as frequent as it used to be, mind you – I actually feel sorry for the mug. I mourn over its loss of purpose in the world, and the part I played in its death… Then I quickly get over it, because one should only allow a modest number of moments of insanity in one’s life.
[This is why I don't name my belongings. A lot of people name their gadgets/musical instruments/etc., and I do none of that, it only makes me worse. I tried giving my violin a name  once upon a time but it didn't work out. So basically we're all no-name slobs now.]
Wag Po
[BGmusic: Girl in the War by Josh Ritter]
Quote for the day:
“All we want to do is eat your brains
We’re not unreasonable; I mean, no-one’s gonna eat your eyes”- Jonathan Coulton’s Re: Your Brains
A sad reality of our times is how indifferent we’ve grown towards each other. Yes, we all have an opinion on the lifestyles of the rich and the famous, but you’ll be hard-pressed to find someone who cares about your run-of-the-mill Juan.
We hardly ever try to connect with people outside of our social circles. Forget making eye contact or wishing someone a good day. We don’t do that. And when we do… okay, let me tell you about what happened to me yesterday.
See, I was in a pretty good mood because I just came from church [and post-church lunch], and I’m almost always in a good mood after church [and post-church lunch]. Plus, I just bought a CD and was in the process of buying myself a book, so if you were playing the Sims [2 - am in the process of getting myself Sims 3 hwahaha], my aspiration level would be platinum.
Anyway, so there I was, in line at the cashier at this second-hand bookstore, when I feel the man in front of me looking at me. So I look at him in the eye, and he smiles at me and I smile back. And I think, “Wow, this world isn’t so bad if strangers still smile at each other.”
Gathering Cobwebs
[BGmusic: nothing for now]
Quote for the day:
“I hate the phone, but I wish you’d call.”
- Joshua Radin, The Fear You Won’t Fall
[But it's not like anyone can call me, due to my phoneless state.]
Yes, I know I’m such a loser for not updating this thing more often. But even though I think most of my readers have up and gone and forgotten about this blog – and I won’t hold it against them because in the real world that’s what happens when blogs are seemingly abandoned – I shall pick up where I left off.
So, UPDATES.
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Bring on the FAQ’s!
[Translation: if you're reading this please don't ask me these questions because I've been having this conversation about five hundred times already.]
So, what have you been up to lately?
I have been:
- lying around our house playing computer games
- reading manga
- honing my ukulele skillz
- watching sitcoms/dramas/anime/anything
Sometimes simultaneously.
State of the Heart Address
[BGmusic: Stormy Weather by Louis Armstrong]
Quote for the day:
“I’ve made a horrible mistake.”
- Gob, Arrested Development
Last week, I made the unpleasant discovery that the person I had deemed worthy of my bad poetry and daydreaming was, in fact… not.
See people, I have a disease.
I have pedestalectasis. When I find someone… interesting, I have the tendency to fling them up on a pedestal and idolize idealize all their good qualities while pretending that the bad qualities aren’t really all that bad… these flaws only make them three-dimensional. Then I find someone from film or literature to associate them to, so everything I don’t know or understand about this person is filled in and explained by their fictional counterpart’s traits and background stories. So you can imagine what a mess I end up with when everything falls into shambles.
Eventually, [sometimes thankfully] I get a wakeup call.
Usually, it comes in the form of another girl on his arm [nuuuuuu!]. But in this case, it was… an unresolvable, intolerable clash of opinions. Taste is relative. I get that. Good and bad taste is not, but it’s tolerable. Then there’s right and wrong taste, which is on a whole different level altogether.
Illustration:
Bad taste is tolerable: “So… you like Gokey… *insert abrupt topic change here*”
Wrong taste is wrong: “You’re a Nazi? Have a nice life.”
Mmmbop
[BGmusic: Sky by Joshua Radin and Ingrid Michaelson]
Quote for the day:
“In an mmmbop they’re not there.
Until you lose your hair. But you don’t care.”- Hanson, Mmmbop
Last weekend I got a little taste of life on the other side of the generation gap.
I was in Laguna for this retreat my parents were holding for some military families, and was one of the oldest “kids” there [the oldest being my sister]. Because my mother kept insisting that I should make an effort to be sociable, I made myself look busy by sitting with my sister, who was socializing with some [obviously younger] girls.
Check out the dialogue:
Girl1: “OMG, you’re turning fourteen this year.”
Girl2: “Yeah, so are you.”
Girl1: “But you’ll be first. You’re sooo old.”
Me: *blank face*