[BGmusic: Fly Love by Jamie Foxx]

Quote for the day:

What am I supposed to be?
Look at me, oh my love.
Here I am, what am I supposed to do?
Here I am, what can I do for you?

- John Lennon

A lot happened recently. Look around and you’ll agree. The universe has been throwing people in the most unexpected directions–people have lost/gained friends, pets, jobs, direction, boyfriends, girlfriends, complicatedfriends, etc.

But. For some strange reason nothing major has happened to me, and save for some self-inflicted drama, all I have to show for myself is a tan [thank you, office team building exercise] and a bad haircut. [I went to get my bangs trimmed and my stylist got overexcited with the scissors. Now I have Amelie-bangs--perfectly adorable if you have Audrey Tautou's bone structure, but I don't so I just look like a dweeb.]

Anyway, I’m really really happy for developments in other people’s lives and everything, but living vicariously through my books and friends’ stories gets old after a while. It doesn’t have to happen now, but I need to know that one day I will step out of the chorus line and see what it’s like to be Out There. Is that too much to ask, world? Just one solo. One line, even?

Please?

4/21/11

UPDATE: I change my mind. I like the safety of the chorus line too much to put myself out there. Thank you and have a nice day!