May 12 2010

The Skulker

Filed under: Incoherent

[BGmusic: Your Protector by Fleet Foxes]

Quote for the day:

Everybody poops.

- some guy

Here’s today’s walking-home-from-the-corner-of-the-highway-five-minute reverie: If I were invisible I would stalk my life’s movers and shakers.

I’d skulk around in the bedrooms of the beautiful and powerful. I’d read over the shoulder of that-boy-I-haven’t-quite-gotten-over-yet. I’d sit in my former professors’ living rooms and see what soaps they watch.

I’d watch them clip their toenails, come home drunk and bleary-eyed, floss, and pick their noses. Not necessarily in that order.

Maybe then I would stop using them as measuring sticks for my physical attractiveness/intelligence/aptitude for greatness/and all that crap. Maybe then I’d let you see me and maybe then I wouldn’t care about what you’re thinking instead of pretending not to care, like I always, always do.

May 09 2010

Wicked Games

Filed under: Self

[BGmusic: I'm Waking Up To Us by Belle and Sebastian]

Quote for the day:

Man is a make-believe animal: he is never so truly himself as when he is acting a part.

- William Hazlitt

A long, long time ago, back in the days of Pogs and Tamagochi, I used to run around pretending to be the Pink Ranger/Sailor Venus/A Horse/Little Foot.

Now that I’m older and equipped with more sophisticated make-believe equipment, I pretend to be Cool/A Grown-Up/Good/Together/Someone You Would Be Friends With.

Pretend games weren’t always this depressing.